I’m ready for my close up..

It took me some time to be able to compose thought one how I felt about the passing of Bettie. I have lost many close to me, but to take an idol like that in my life was something new to me. Everyone expected different reaction out of me and I guess I was not sure what I wanted my own reaction to be. I remember when Frank Sinatra died my grandmother cried, no more like sobbed. I was not sure if this is the reaction I was supposed to have. Especially because I feel I have come farther then most in my journey to learn everything about her life. I wanted to have some great words, or make up some great speech that would change the minds of all, and then I realized that was her job, only through pictures and motions.

I came to this conclusion. Bettie Page was always a pin up I was curios to know more about. She lived such a rebellious life yet she tried to be portrayed as innocent most of the time, much life myself. I think her picture are inspiring because she did go above and beyond the norm. But all in all she did what she loved to do and when she was done she moved on and never really expected more then some cash to get her through the hard time. Her personality was like no one else. Yes she was a little crazy, a little out of the normal and maybe lost many of her marbles along the way, but who really ever cared about her personality? How many people do you  know that know the logistics of her mind, body and soul. I think that if people had taken a deeper look at things they would have found much more beauty in the pain she was never able to uncover.

All in all, I think her death made me realize that people can do anything they want and leave the world long before their time, like Bettie. She left life years ago yet is still with us today and will continue to effect other for generations to come and that is something I know I would love to accomplish.

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